Im worried that if I try to be better I might fail.
I am worried about the prospect of not being bigger than my circumstance, situation, job, finances, insecurities,
expectancy to fuck up
or to be screwed,
habitual tendency to beat the shit out of myself
I worry that I am not the whole, funny, secure, beautiful, tall, vibrant, intelligent, nurturing, self made chick, that I rock all day
that I am less than her so much more less than her
I worry they will see how small I really feel
in the linings of my life in the not done's or do over's, in the divorces, and the mistakes
Im a bit worried but mostly ready
ready to shed this doubt and put on some tougher skin
to trade it in
for a solid love of self.
